My Lady's Smile

And that smile she gave to me
Oh I can live it on forever and forever again!
The way she talked,the way she gazed
The way she looked was all so wonderful!
As she always has remained calm,tranquil,reserve yet cool.
When I asked her where are you going to leave me?
She had said in the place at that point
Where the heavens kiss the earth!
Where the waves in the middle of the seas,cease to rise and fall!
When the sun begins to rise at west
I shall leave you then at your very best!
So curious we were for each other I felt
Yet not a thing parted between us
Such was the curiosity curbed
But yet her eyes were interrogatory!
I felt it as a fact for sure.
Still I tried but could not avoid the lure
To keep looking into her eyes so beautiful so pure...

A Voice Within...

When I walk through those familiar streets
Thinking of the old times
Away from this world I go, so lost in myself
A voice within me screams where are you?

When I sat with my friends all around
Happiness as if for long, lost and found
Heartily laughed away at the silliest jokes
I felt we belonged to another world
Where time had stopped running away
How much I wish in reality it could be this way!
It is then I am,lost again in myself
A voice within me screams where are you?

For the times we were close together
All of us in a group caring like hell for no other
When each day at class we fought over something new
Yet settling everything exchanging a smiles few
Remembering those days now,I am lost in myself
A voice within me screams where are you?

Many a times when I see myself now
I am scared finding out who am I?
Thinking where did it all go wrong
Is this not the same me I was searching for so long!
Here again I am lost in myself
Is that the same voice now I hear?
A voice which brings in me unexplained fear
The voice within me screaming where are you???

Thrilling Adventure

We went to the cafe in the morn

Beaming high with the thought of fun

We feared of getting caught so we had to run

We reached the classroom with emotions merry

And onto our benches we had to hurry

Only to escape our teacher's fury!!

Once in our seats we heaved a sigh

The thought of eating mixture in class secretly...

Made my spirits soar high...

And slowly and silently from handful to mouthful

With utmost care I did finish my share!

Hence ended the game of hide and seek

My teacher was left with no clue

Smartly and intelligently I gave him no hint

So that there be anything he could do....

Longing For You...

As seconds grow into minutes,I have waited
As minutes grew into hours,I have waited
As hours passed by into days,I have waited
Watching the hands of the clock running
One after another catching up and separating!
One hand leading,the other following...
So passes by the time and older grows the day
I keep on telling myself sometime today it will be my way!
As such this morning has turned into afternoon
And now the afternoon is approaching the evening..
Still I haven't lost hope still I am waiting!
For I know not of what else to do
Than to wait and watch out for you
Yet I know not what am I waiting for!
Cos yes I have kept open my door
He will step in,my love I am sure
One last wish I have my love
For once your voice is all I long to hear
I need a hug to fight out my fear
Oh! the night has never seemed more longer...
Oh!Here he is,my sweet darling lover
Of late I had taught myself not to weep....
So long we have our memories to keep
On seeing him I managed a smile
but couldnt hold back a drop of tear
Taking our moments of togetherness
In your arms My eyes I am,closing forever
My last words I want for you to remember
Nothing hurts more than waiting
Since I dont even know what was I waiting for anymore!......

Memories Of Saint Joseph's School

School dear why is it that I am unable to forget your memories?

Why is it that I am unable to break bonds with you?

Is it for my friends or my teachers or still is it for the teachings I learnt in your lap..

Is it for the love and affection I received from you?

Or is it for the attention you always gave to me...

My friends still come in my dreams...My friends still call me up

My friends still care for me and I continue

To think of them in my moments of happiness and sorrows

There were friends I fought with

There were friends I talked to

There were those I liked

There were some we joked

And still some others whom I let my secrets flow...

Thank you friends for helping me for cooperating me

For keeping my secrets I shall ever and forever be grateful to you..

How are you dear friends?Shall we ever meet again under the twilight and the dawn!!!

Or in the best of places

Right inside our school!!!!!

Do please let me know,for I long to hear from you...

I pray God for your well being wherever you all are

May you all remain ever gay and successful

May all your dreams come trueAnd in your heart by your dreams

If you ever think of me

Please please please O please

Please let me come through.....

The Last Letter

Why do friends come into life?? They say,life is hell without friends,I know it is worse;Maybe as I write,I wont be able to keep track as I am not able to think straight now.The 25th of november I thought was just like anyother normal day...Everything was ok if not fine till I reached college around 1:15 pm,was wandering here and there with nothing much to do about.And then our H.O.D. sir I saw,did a namaskar but noticed one thing!his smile wasn't there for the first time,and when I was close enough sir suddenly started:Arey,today I got a message about Jyoti,is it correct?I thought sir was asking about Jyoti's father who had passed away 17 days back,I said yes sir its true but he passed away around diwali... Sir stopped me when he said what spot death?I said no sir,he had died of heart attack. Sir said no I am asking about Jyoti Ranjan Mohapatra!I was suddenly shocked unable to relate Jyoti and spot death,I asked what sir did you get a message about??Sir said a msg saying Jyoti passed away in an accident!!

And then suddenly every single thing in my mind went astray;True,I had noticed a strange unusual silence,deadly and dangerously ominous all around the college,When I entered the college gate,my reason for being there was to help a friend normally we were a group of 20 students ready to help,but then we were only three of us at college when exams were due after 20 minutes.I called up another friend at college who was Jyoti's room mate and after he confirmed the news,I began to realise why our place seemed so empty,void of students void of friends void of everyone;All must have gone to see him and why not,Jyoti was a friend not only to me but to each one of us who were lucky to know him,be with him,live with him a friend as such who if ever we had asked him Jyoti you need to die,so that we wont come under trouble,he would have happily killed himself in a split second without giving it a second thought,such was his care for us and now today he has indeed left us all behind,I had decided not to write about Jyoti because he was a guy who always had made us laugh but today and all other days to come in my life he made me cry and then he is no more with us even to console us let alone joke and laugh with us!

The way I would always remember Jyoti smiling,loving,caring sacrificing demanding,yet standing up against the whole world for us for any matter silly or serious,I was indeed lucky to have a friend in him...I haven't known Jyoti for long,those four years of my engineering is all we were together and we had promised each other to remain friends for life.He kept his promise for life,but how am I to keep mine share;he left us all,when he is no more with whom am I going to be mad upon,about whom shall I joke around tease and make fun of... his departure has created a void in my life that no one can fill,there will be no another Jyoti who would call me names who would ask me my condition who would come to me at my one call not caring if it were necessary or not,I can not think now,the more I think,the heavier I feel at my heart,a rush of tears threaten me to break the barrier of my eye lids but I cannot cry I will not cry Jyoti would never in his life or after his death want to see us cry..so this is the least I can do..........

Since yesterday I have so many questions in my mind for God!Does He really exist,sometimes my heart answers Yes He does and yet some other times my mind stops believing in His grace altogether!From my childhood I have always been taught What God does is never without a purpose,never injustice to anyone. But now I fail to see the purpose God had in mind for taking Jyoti away from us,I fail to find out what justice it is God delivered to a lady who had lost her husband 17 days ago,lose her only son and that too in a truck accident for no fault of his own.......

goodbye dearest friend of all! there will never be another like you love you buddy!!You will always be with me in my heart till I die and then we meet once again.....

Someone I Know...

Someone I know is waiting for me
Somewhere out there is eager to see
Sometime will come when I will be free
Sometime I know I will not worry
Some day I know I will not be sorry
Sorry for what I am doing
Sorry for why I am not crying!
Oh you tears hold on! You have to wait
Wait until everything in my life is set
One day I believe I will get
To know myself,my identity,my love I bet
Then I promise, I'll let you flow at your rate
Till my face is soaked!
Till my throat is choked!
Till my looks are blurred!
Till my eyes are wet!
But sorry for now for you must wait...
This I promise I wont be late!!