The Last Letter

Why do friends come into life?? They say,life is hell without friends,I know it is worse;Maybe as I write,I wont be able to keep track as I am not able to think straight now.The 25th of november I thought was just like anyother normal day...Everything was ok if not fine till I reached college around 1:15 pm,was wandering here and there with nothing much to do about.And then our H.O.D. sir I saw,did a namaskar but noticed one thing!his smile wasn't there for the first time,and when I was close enough sir suddenly started:Arey,today I got a message about Jyoti,is it correct?I thought sir was asking about Jyoti's father who had passed away 17 days back,I said yes sir its true but he passed away around diwali... Sir stopped me when he said what spot death?I said no sir,he had died of heart attack. Sir said no I am asking about Jyoti Ranjan Mohapatra!I was suddenly shocked unable to relate Jyoti and spot death,I asked what sir did you get a message about??Sir said a msg saying Jyoti passed away in an accident!!

And then suddenly every single thing in my mind went astray;True,I had noticed a strange unusual silence,deadly and dangerously ominous all around the college,When I entered the college gate,my reason for being there was to help a friend normally we were a group of 20 students ready to help,but then we were only three of us at college when exams were due after 20 minutes.I called up another friend at college who was Jyoti's room mate and after he confirmed the news,I began to realise why our place seemed so empty,void of students void of friends void of everyone;All must have gone to see him and why not,Jyoti was a friend not only to me but to each one of us who were lucky to know him,be with him,live with him a friend as such who if ever we had asked him Jyoti you need to die,so that we wont come under trouble,he would have happily killed himself in a split second without giving it a second thought,such was his care for us and now today he has indeed left us all behind,I had decided not to write about Jyoti because he was a guy who always had made us laugh but today and all other days to come in my life he made me cry and then he is no more with us even to console us let alone joke and laugh with us!

The way I would always remember Jyoti smiling,loving,caring sacrificing demanding,yet standing up against the whole world for us for any matter silly or serious,I was indeed lucky to have a friend in him...I haven't known Jyoti for long,those four years of my engineering is all we were together and we had promised each other to remain friends for life.He kept his promise for life,but how am I to keep mine share;he left us all,when he is no more with whom am I going to be mad upon,about whom shall I joke around tease and make fun of... his departure has created a void in my life that no one can fill,there will be no another Jyoti who would call me names who would ask me my condition who would come to me at my one call not caring if it were necessary or not,I can not think now,the more I think,the heavier I feel at my heart,a rush of tears threaten me to break the barrier of my eye lids but I cannot cry I will not cry Jyoti would never in his life or after his death want to see us cry..so this is the least I can do..........

Since yesterday I have so many questions in my mind for God!Does He really exist,sometimes my heart answers Yes He does and yet some other times my mind stops believing in His grace altogether!From my childhood I have always been taught What God does is never without a purpose,never injustice to anyone. But now I fail to see the purpose God had in mind for taking Jyoti away from us,I fail to find out what justice it is God delivered to a lady who had lost her husband 17 days ago,lose her only son and that too in a truck accident for no fault of his own.......

goodbye dearest friend of all! there will never be another like you love you buddy!!You will always be with me in my heart till I die and then we meet once again.....