Being Nostalgic

Time seems to have rolled on much too fast. It feels as if yesterday that I have lived my most cherished moments. Everyday I wake up to the so called new day and every night I sleep out waiting for the next day. Still this yesterday doesn’t look like passing away ever and ever atleast for once! Every morning I wake up telling myself “Yesterday is gone all that I have is today and I have to think of a better tomorrow” and how much do I succeed?? Yes for two, three or four days but then again one day at some point of time I my today, my mind my thoughts take me back to yesterday. And then the usual chain of happenings, those reminiscences of happy times, of sad ones, of victory, of failures, of silly fights, of stupid quarrels, and of times of extreme support from friends even at silly crazy ideas,… all start right from the day I started remembering events, its not that I have remembered all that has happened so far, nobody has, can or will remember that way but still there are some that never have gone from my mind, there are memories again which I would like to forget and never remember ever again!!
Sometimes I wonder what it, of which human memory is made up, is and how the most complex circuitry that of our brain records and stores those that we call memories, it sure isn’t some rewritable media or atleast a formattable disk, but it sure has an unimaginable storage capacity and the best thing is the way of retrieval. I suppose it’s a common thing for all of us isn’t it, to just sit down silent and lonely and start thinking about memories and the things we remember are each crystal clear to us as if they had occurred yesterday!! Oh God not again!! Why does this yesterday thing become so important in our life?
They say today is a gift, to utilize wisely for a better tomorrow. Each moment is precious, we often get cornered not to fool around and waste time. But in this hectic schedule, where life has become so monotonically defined that people wake up and start their daily chores in a pace that is always the same in general like waking up at a particular time, brushing teeth and continuing till you get ready to leave for your workplace and the next moment you look at your watch you realize time has indeed passed away fast! Sometimes we didn’t even have time to spare for taking a walk in serene surroundings enjoying the cool morning air or atleast rejoicing at the chirping birds! And this way today passes and soon at the end of the day becomes yesterday! All that we have when we go to sleep is again some memories of today that will soon while we sleep tonight become memories of yesterday when we wake up tomorrow!! Likewise the cycle of yesterday-today-tomorrow continues forever.
It is funny, the way we describe someone who lives in yesterday as being nostalgic and someone who keeps on pushing off things that one otherwise should have started today to start tomorrow as a procrastinator. No one can say that he/she hasn’t ever have had a row of nostalgia at any point of time.
When I look around myself be it in my friend circle, at our surrounding neighbors or for that matter the everyday society I come across I find a lot of nostalgics like me and procrastinators too but only a rare handful of people who live in the present. And mind you in no way does it mean that we, being nostalgics always remain in the past! All that I try to do is fill my today with so many memorable little things before it becomes yesterday, so that the next time I become nostalgic, I wont be sad.
I am but only one among the lot others who love the feeling of being nostalgic although sometimes I do become a procrastinator for a few days when matters like studying for the exams or sticking to a scheduled regimen show up; but yet again I am not the only one who procrastinates such matters!
Good or bad I know not, but I am happy trying to make the most of my today and enjoying the moments of being nostalgic thinking about my school, college and hostel life…….