Being Nostalgic

Time seems to have rolled on much too fast. It feels as if yesterday that I have lived my most cherished moments. Everyday I wake up to the so called new day and every night I sleep out waiting for the next day. Still this yesterday doesn’t look like passing away ever and ever atleast for once! Every morning I wake up telling myself “Yesterday is gone all that I have is today and I have to think of a better tomorrow” and how much do I succeed?? Yes for two, three or four days but then again one day at some point of time I my today, my mind my thoughts take me back to yesterday. And then the usual chain of happenings, those reminiscences of happy times, of sad ones, of victory, of failures, of silly fights, of stupid quarrels, and of times of extreme support from friends even at silly crazy ideas,… all start right from the day I started remembering events, its not that I have remembered all that has happened so far, nobody has, can or will remember that way but still there are some that never have gone from my mind, there are memories again which I would like to forget and never remember ever again!!
Sometimes I wonder what it, of which human memory is made up, is and how the most complex circuitry that of our brain records and stores those that we call memories, it sure isn’t some rewritable media or atleast a formattable disk, but it sure has an unimaginable storage capacity and the best thing is the way of retrieval. I suppose it’s a common thing for all of us isn’t it, to just sit down silent and lonely and start thinking about memories and the things we remember are each crystal clear to us as if they had occurred yesterday!! Oh God not again!! Why does this yesterday thing become so important in our life?
They say today is a gift, to utilize wisely for a better tomorrow. Each moment is precious, we often get cornered not to fool around and waste time. But in this hectic schedule, where life has become so monotonically defined that people wake up and start their daily chores in a pace that is always the same in general like waking up at a particular time, brushing teeth and continuing till you get ready to leave for your workplace and the next moment you look at your watch you realize time has indeed passed away fast! Sometimes we didn’t even have time to spare for taking a walk in serene surroundings enjoying the cool morning air or atleast rejoicing at the chirping birds! And this way today passes and soon at the end of the day becomes yesterday! All that we have when we go to sleep is again some memories of today that will soon while we sleep tonight become memories of yesterday when we wake up tomorrow!! Likewise the cycle of yesterday-today-tomorrow continues forever.
It is funny, the way we describe someone who lives in yesterday as being nostalgic and someone who keeps on pushing off things that one otherwise should have started today to start tomorrow as a procrastinator. No one can say that he/she hasn’t ever have had a row of nostalgia at any point of time.
When I look around myself be it in my friend circle, at our surrounding neighbors or for that matter the everyday society I come across I find a lot of nostalgics like me and procrastinators too but only a rare handful of people who live in the present. And mind you in no way does it mean that we, being nostalgics always remain in the past! All that I try to do is fill my today with so many memorable little things before it becomes yesterday, so that the next time I become nostalgic, I wont be sad.
I am but only one among the lot others who love the feeling of being nostalgic although sometimes I do become a procrastinator for a few days when matters like studying for the exams or sticking to a scheduled regimen show up; but yet again I am not the only one who procrastinates such matters!
Good or bad I know not, but I am happy trying to make the most of my today and enjoying the moments of being nostalgic thinking about my school, college and hostel life…….

Lost In Myself

Tonight on the terrace I stood
I tried to look as far into the roads I possibly could.
The full moon over my head beamed,
Of a fairy,standing there I dreamed!
Your thoughts came to me
I looked at the moon
A golden brightness surrounded her soon
Alone in the lonely sky she shone
Then came the stars one by one
Oh what a glorious sight that was!
Time seemed to come to a standstill.
Then suddenly an emptiness swelled inside me
An emptiness of you not being with me
When I was devouring this sight
An emptiness I knew I alone could not fight
An emptiness I know,no one but you can fill
There is one thing I need to be clear
There is only one thing I fear
An answer I have so longed to hear
When I remember you closing my eyes
Will I find you near?
My road to you as my destination
Seems to me all uphill
Do I need to tell you everything in detail still!??

Remembering You On Your Birthday

Today when I thought of you,I got no other day
As special as this to say a thank you!
I remember the day you once told me
I am still a child!
Few years had passed then,Few years have passed now
But wait! For you must hear I am not a child anymore.....
Now when I look back to where had it all started?
The beginning,the progress,the end all seems silly to me.
Cos I was still a child then,But am not one anymore!
The times I spent with my friends I will always remember
Those moments happy and sad at school,I will cherish forever
Cos I was still a child then,But am not anymore!
Being a friend of mine,you have always taught
One thing now that I have never forgot!
To live my life as it comes my way
To stop worrying myself out night and day.
My life has moved on,as have you
Cos I was still a child then,But am not anymore!
All that I want is to wish today
May this day be a very memorable,blessed and happy birthday!!!
P.S.This I will always remember
My life has for me lots more in store
I was still a child then,but am not anymore...not anymore.....

Her Boon Of Bliss

Slowly and silently they started to fall
Drop by drop as if answering a thirsty call
I was drawn into the majestic exhibition
Of heavenly beauty and eternal satisfaction
I started walking out of the door
I felt I was welcomed to the core!
For gradually the drops grew bigger
For gradually the roar was heavier!
Still I could not let go off that embrace
However hard I tried
My steps I could not retrace!
And far I went so far I went!
I was watching the water fill up every crack and vent
The water was dripping me wet
And the feeling was joyously wonderful I bet!
An aroma of freshness was in the air
The whole of Earth suddenly looked so green so fair
I realised with the advent of monsoon
The Earth had indeed recieved a unique boon!!