If Only...

(I)

As the morning approaches the darkness

As another new dawn prepares to break in...

Walking alone against the cool soothing breeze

On that old familiar stretch of road

I do not feel myself at ease!

My heart seems heavy with a load.

For I keep on falling into the land of my thoughts....

Thoughts of why life had to be such today

Why did you and me have to suddenly part our way!!

(II)

The sights of rainy showers and lonely roads,

Swaying trees and floating clouds

The stretches of lush green fields

And that childish innocence

To which all anger yields

Are all making me so desperately wish

If only I could be a child again...

(III)

Remembering the way things used to be back then

We were just two friends walking carefree in the rain

No questions asked on our friendship

No eyebrows raised over our timeless gossip

No restrictions set on our courtship

No conclusions drawn over our relationship....

(IV)

A time that once was between you and me

Now I sometimes wonder if ever again will be

For those days were a lot more simpler

When us holding hands was instinctively natural

When our sitting close wasn't that big a matter

The time before life became complicated

And friendship turned into flings...

My only big problem was thinking of

Ways to tease you and then patch up things

Those hidden passions of giving funny nicknames

With warm vivid memories of long forgotten games!!!

(V)

Feels as if yesterday they had let us grow up together as best friends

Yesterday that they let us build each other's trust!

Yet all those days that I now think of

Convinced I am, for us things are only going to get worst

All these years later,we have grown

All the while taught to handle our life as it comes on our own...

When everytime we meet each other,we know we haven't changed a bit

Why then do they have such sick and lousy issues with it!!

(VI)

Now that I am growing up I so frequently dream...

I dream of this long sea beach

With the waves playing a soft music

And the wind being playfully naughty...

Walking along the shores hand in hand

Me and you watching the lovely setting sun

At times again running around and having fun...

(VII)

I wake up suddenly,disturbed from my sleep

I sit up wide awake on my bed!!

With all those memories spinning around in my head

I then start wishing if only if only

I could be a child yet again....

And all I manage to finally do is

Let out a loud yet so silent scream.....